Thursday, August 17, 2006
here again. to post=)
went to amk central jus nw. with YT-ING
we went pasar malam. eating, playing, chatting like siao-cha-bos.
we girls nv been normal.
jus now in sch after recess. shir tok to me.
she asked me, how come this time go recess nv wait for her.
it has been so long then she realised it.
actually, nt very long story, also no1 is at fault.
its jus that i find that the distance between me and her became so far apart.
previous times, i go recess with her, she finish eating and she could tell me that she leave with mei or becca or ying 1st.
im sorta feeling left out.
rather being left out, of cos this time i go with ppl whom i wont feel left out.
like example yt or saliza.
haix. our distance apart had became so big. as if now, i dunno ur life and u dunno mine.
even the bag, jus bought not long nia. u chnged it le. nw same as mei.
you're giving the feeling like u dun take this frenship in mind.
maybe i shant think tis way.
u haf the freedom of chngin ur bags.
now. it doesnt matter to me anymore.
it seems like we only tok when it comes to interact or psl.
besides all this, i doubt if we even chatted about other stuff.
that time it was u who suggested getting the bag, but now, tis is wad happen.
i find the bag meaningless nw.
i wan to chng it. i dunno y.
if u happen to read, im not blaming u.
all i cn do is put the blame on myself.
frenship maintainance is on ourself and not the partner.
i din do a gd job, letting the gaps between to widen.
if u read tis, cn i ask u a ques?
cn we go to study together tis weekend?
it really seems so long since we 2 go out tgt, only the 2 of us.
i full of 'life story' to share with u. u noe?
heard during recess that 3h only haf 4 passes for their eng.
3h such gd language class, already so many fail.
my class, standard lower, wont it be worse.
i afraid to take test paper back now. or rather doing the test.
i've got enuf of failing. when cn i put a stop to it.
i wan to study. whenever im hope. i cnt study. there's too much distractions.
i wan study, yet the knowledge cnt get into my brain.
so many braincells haf been killed.
mum says, if i pass my eng she gif me 20 bucks.
probably i've got to wait longer to get tis 20 bucks.
i'll stop here for todae.
`missing someone=)
5:20 PM; shattered
dreams.