Tuesday, September 19, 2006
i hasnt been blogging for a wk though.
pretty little sry. last thurs till todae, has been settling my cca stuff.
this wk has either been cca or interact club.
so watcha think of my life?
i needa start studying le.
once mooncake festival is over, im going to concentrate liao.
im gonna noe if my cca continues tml.
i tink i needa bring lotsa tissue, in case.
before it comes to the worse, i shall smile first.
=))
7:57 PM; shattered
dreams.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
hey peeps.
very sry.
im nt in the mood of blogging todae.
i nid some time.
probably tml then blog again..
sry..
i hear my heart cries, yet no tears frm my eyes-
4:29 AM; shattered
dreams.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
ok. i din pon sch todae. i din go with valid reason.
im sick. since the camp till todae nt yet recovered.
think got the germs frm jiayi.
cos during camp she was sick. after that is my turn.
it seems so unfair.
when to c the doc this afternoon. abt 12.
took cab to serangoon. was sirt of lazy to walk and no strength oso.
fees was like $35. so ex rite?
paid only $20.
no choice. cos not enuf money
tml then go pay $15.
after that went to the bakery opp shop & save.
bought 2 bread and 3 small cupcakes.
costed me $3.
wad's next, is that when i was walking to the bus stop,
i saw this black and white wrapper.
it's pretty nice.
so i bought 2 pieces to wrap my file.
cost me $1.20.
took bus 53 then chng 136 home.
that way is faster.
reach home eat bread took medication,
played sims2 on DS.
then slept for 2 hours.
but the air con dun seems to be cold though.
wake up liao play again then go back slp again.
started watchin holland v at only 6.20.
LOL! 10 mins oso shuang.
c my life at home is filled with nth but slp, play, watch.
however, pretty bad.
i missed 3 periods of impt maths lesson.
hais.
WTF. if i hadnt got sick.
-it takes time to forget u as a crush, and it would take time to rmb u as a fren instead of a crush.
-erase ur name off
6:58 PM; shattered
dreams.
Monday, September 11, 2006
i hadnt been posting for 1/2 a month.
so wassup lately?
im nt gonna post about past 2 wk..
'cos it's gonna be a long way to go.
so wad happened yesterdae?
i've got bad news frm chu xuan when i was at my sis office.
xuan helped me to cor him. and i found out that he's actually attached.
i suppose it is one of the girl at his church.
it was lucky that i din brokedown when i heard the news.
ai de mei na meh shen.
it nt that deep like when i was sec1.
i was told by a msg of his, nt to like him, 'cos he isnt worth the 'like'
probably wad the guy told me two years ago was rite.
18/10/04 he told me that i this type no guy will like 1..
probably he's rite. who knows...
probably is for me to know and others to find out.
im sort of down nw..i haf a confused feeling..
he doesnt noe who is the person interested in him.
i told xuan nt to let him noe.
shld i let him noe? or shld i nt?
if he noes, will our dist get further?
if i dun, i feel bad for lying.
WHAT SHLD I DO?! GOD, TEACH ME WAD TO DO!
so, todae's mood wasnt really that kind compared to usual.
and i was coughing and sneezeing my way to heaven.
and nw, eating chocolate chips.
is tis a form of self punishment?
i got totally no idea of it. im in the state of confusion.
i wish to tok to him personally abt tis.
yet i haf no guts.
in everything i do, i dare, i take challenge.
tis is the only thing i dun dare.
i fear rejections. even reports says so.
i myself sees that.
i wan to let him noe, i like him and stuff.
however, im afraid of the rejections he gif.
i tried to gif up tis morning.
yet, many hours ltr, nw, sitting infront of the comp.
THINKING OF HIM.
it long since i like someone.
the last time of when i confess on the 7 june 05.
nw is 06.
it seems like i like a guy each year hurs.
im trying to be strong and give up.
i nid a big eraser!
erase his name of my mind.
erase ur name off-
"i know i cnt swim, yet i jump into the sea, waiting for one to save."
-pamela
5:45 PM; shattered
dreams.