Shattered DREAMs

Monday, November 27, 2006

hasnt been blogging.

comp keeps breaking down.

dunno how it became like this.

alrites. so wad's for today.

i just teared not long ago.

due to my misses to my seniors.

they're leaving the sch soon.

i jus thought of them, and tears just started rolling down.

i seriously jus miss them that much.

the joy and the fun that i had with them.

be it with psl/interact work, even with personal stuff.

i seriously miss them alot alot alot.

having these seniors had become a lifestyle to me.

how im gonna live better without them.

oh god.

i dun wish to go for farewell.

i dun wan to see them leave.

='(

tears for u seniors.

11:48 PM; shattered dreams.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

backie to blog(:

long time din blog le.

so sry abt that.

apologies.

was in hospital everydae since sunday.

ah ma fell and hit the back of her head.

bone broke into small piece.

just a small part of her back head.

and there was blood clot.

but doc say that her life is nt endangered kind of thing.

so ok le lor.

doc todae told her that she tml cn go home le.

so was damn happy.

terrifying things happened this afternoon.

the next bed de ah ma started making some noise.

i din noe what was happening, so i turn my head and looked at her.

i looked down to her hand, i saw blood.

din noe wad happen so took a further look lors.

den i realised that the needle for her drip was out.

she was using the needle to poke her hands.

i got no idea of wad's happening, cos i dun understand her language.

so i noe i saw blood, i jus got my sis to get the nurse in.

the nurse treated her.

end up when i get back frm a quick lunch.

her hands were tied.

the needle part was bandaged.

after that incident, my ah ma went for x-ray.

then went she's back, she cn eat le.

we bought vegetarian food for her.

she was eating so fast like mad.

hahas. she was on drip but she nids food through her mouth to fill her stomach.

hahas.

nw i noe my ah ma v interesting 1.

hahas. she's quite cute a granny.

tml superFAMILY going out tgt agn.(:

11:41 PM; shattered dreams.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

YEAH! back to blog. finally sia.
hahas. im nw at my sis office. using comp.
home comp nt repaired yet. if cnt repair then buy laptop le.
hais. i wan buy hp!!! ytrdae saw the promo lors.
$138 only. with new line contract.
but mama no time go sign line for me.
and promo ends on 17nov. arugghh..
how? i like that phone so much that im going crazy ya noe..
hais. forget it.
if she dun let me buy this wk..
then let them spent 338 on the phone lors.
its like 200 bucks more u noe.
FUCK! hais.

im lost for words. bwg.
aniways. i wont be blogging so often. dun blame me=)
blame the home comp for dying at such time.
hahas.
dying during the period when i cn blog.
haiya!

2:06 PM; shattered dreams.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

im nw at shir's place blogging. hmm...wont be blogging for a long time.
home comp crashed.='(

10:01 PM; shattered dreams.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

im finally back here to blog. im currently in my sis office to use comp. home's comp crashed again. no idea of wad happened. hais.

went to saliza's place before cuming over to bishan. aiya. we went sch, then before lesson starts we left sch. as simple as tat. cos we jus dun feel like having lessons. u noe y? cos the both of us think that we learn nth. serious. besides mskang lesson. which todae dun haf. ytrdae was seriously tired that i cnt go sch. and my leg sorta swell ytrdae. so din go sch. cos i was on court shoes for long hrs standing. that's wad happen. went to doc. say stomach nt feeling well. which is sort of true. then ltr on got medication for my blister on the toe. damn pain. it gets bigger instead of getting smaller. hais. so went to doc then gotten a mc. then jus nw i pretend cough cough lors. end up real cough. hais.then mdm tan allowed me to go home lors. but saliza she wants her to see a doc.

yea. so we went amk after that. saliza thought of going polyclinic. bt the number of ppl inside is like hell alot lars. ok so fine. i went home to chng clothes. put medications on my toe. and left to saliza's hse. went there use comp. as i said, home comp crashed. was helping her to set up a blog. then ltr on help me edit her frenster profile. gosh. she'll all about pink. that's hw bad she cn go. then we edited the profiles over and over again. was there till 3pm. cos i was showing her some interesting e-mails that i've got. hahas. jus to brighten her day lars. (:

i nid to do alot of editing lehs. hahas. many asked me to link yet i haven..oh yes. something pretty important.

HAPPY BDAE to serene (:

tml is muah chee bdae..i forgotten wad i called her. anyways she jus looks like those ice-cream muah chee lars. hehes.

im nw at bishan rotting. sis isnt in office. she went out. hais. that's y im blogging and typing alot. i wanna play the popcap game yet i cnt load it. wad a rotten luck. haiyo!

ok lars. i tok alot liao hor. i stop here lars. if nt ltr ppl say i naggy. wad to do, im being influenced by my naggy sis. hehes(: oh ya, jus nw gl ask me if wan go kbox. but i no money lehs. i cnt wait to get my pay. hehes..ok ok. stop liao. SHIT! im becoming more and more naggy liaos. i cnt stop. hahas. kk. nw really i'll stop nagging. (:

5:16 PM; shattered dreams.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

back to blog again. after days of nt blogging.

YAY~ finally going to work ltr. hehes.

but im v scared.

1st time going out for work.

ltr go there gong gon dunno wad to do.

then let ppl laugh at.

then will be so paiseh.

i hope there is those auntie auntie 1.

hahas.

weird?

not at all.

cos auntie auntie then they will be v happy to help=)

dun wan those act big 1 lors.

i hope go there dun nid pay this and pay that sia.

i no $$ le lars.

my purpose of working is becos i not enuf money lers..

then yet before my work, i already apent a hundred $s on my clothes.

rotten luck.

how?

im afraid of ltr work.

wad if no customer buy mp3 ar?

LOL! they hire me for nothing.

but the most ideal mp3 there.

i think would be k5.

it rocks lors.

i oso wan.

but no $ buy.

think it's sorta of expensive lars.

oh yea.

i dun like the company sia.

when they nid u to work, they call u the dae before.

it's like so short time notice lehs.

i heard that BEST de ppl quite gd 1.

so i hope so lars.

i hope they be frenly and nice lors.

i dun wan those fucking idiots lars.

i'll end here today. cos nth to say liao.

7:54 AM; shattered dreams.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

backie to blog. yea, second entry for the dae.
i went for the training this afternoon. so last min then call us lors.
hais. then end up went there like 3+pm, they told us only an hour.
yet we spent like 3 hrs therE? we stayed till abt 7.
that's so long.
and i was the first to go for the test.
cos shir and becca may nt be working.
but me wan work. i nid money.
whole family v broke nw.
then i v scared, then i keep err arr...alot!
then knew this 2 guys there.
yong an and vincent. yea..
then yong an told shirley abt my err and arr..
yea..i noe he meant gd. hahas. thx.
LOL!
im afraid if this sat i start working.
im afraid that i dunno alot of things.
im afraid the ppl mind guiding me along.
im afraid that i ask too much questions.

i feel as if im afraid of going society to work!

11:27 PM; shattered dreams.

back for blogging aft so many days.

yupps. im somehow shock ytrd.

i heard frm rachel fong that her mum passed away.

i feel sad too. she's my kindergarten fren.

im somehow feeling the pain too.

dunno y.

i said little prayers last nite.

i wanted God to make her strong.

since God has taken away her love one.

God shld make her strong, embrace her with love.

there's nth i cn do for my gd fren.

all i cn really do, is to pray for her.

her mum might haf left, there's lesser pain that auntie would suffer.

but there's much more pain that rachel suffered.

i dunno if rachel would see this.

but i wish to say.

rachel,

be strong, ur mum doesnt wan to see u like this.

she wans to see u strong and take gd care of urself.

it's difficult to accept the path that God chose for u.

somehow, u still have to accept.

dun dwell over things too much.

step ahead.

ur mum's wans u to lead on with life properly and nicely.

dun allow her to worry, alrites?

take care

10:20 AM; shattered dreams.