Shattered DREAMs
Wednesday, January 31, 2007

i getting my blog up to date.
my taggy seems to be dying.
anw, me & reb teared ytrdae.
alot alot.
yes, we see her blog and we go tearing again.
today in sch, had the motivation workshop.
at the front part, pretty nice.
that 'xiao mei' was funny. (ltr he angry. LOL!)
but the 2nd session, abt studing well.
was dry though.
sian like crazy.
but at least i manage to learn somethings.
also, i learn how to slp for 5 mins.
YEAH!
hahahas.
craps.

lalalalas~



8:24 PM; shattered dreams.

Monday, January 29, 2007

here to update.
today chang hua duan shuo.
had been feeling quite bad this few daes.
had been missing my slps for days, however it's worth.
yes, her things are more or less over.
but not end of story.

my fren, had lost her mum.
& now her dad, quite sometime ago.
i just learnt it not long.
im feeling remorseful for her.
aint a really close fren now, but it's a once.
i feel sad for her.
WAT CN I DO?!

oh god. y are there so many things happening to the frens arnd me?
hearing all these news are driving me crazy.
i dun wish to hear anymore of such things.
LNY is cuming.
y jus cnt some other more ji li things happen?
stop making me feel sad.
stop letting my frens live in despire.
when they suffer, it's a torture to me.
when they happy, im glad.
that is wad my frens meant to me.

oh god.
really. stop taking ppl away frm earth.
if they meant to live, allow them.
no one deserve such heavy punishment.
really, i meant it.
probably i'll live in despair if the next bad thing happen to ppl arnd me.
probably i'll go crazy and mad.



10:40 PM; shattered dreams.

Friday, January 26, 2007

fine. i just got myself into unneccesary problems again.
i always land in there.
i really din mean to harm her.
i just wanna help. probably u scold me & u were rite.
she may become worse.
but really i just wanna help.
it's very heart-breaking to see her like that.
i noe i may haf done wrong.
im sorry for that.
im guilty now.
i was really wanting to help her.
probably i shldnt haf said anything.
but y shld i keep a mum out of everything.
i feel the pain for her.
u said that u would give me a bad remark.
think there's no way for u to chng ur mind.
there's nth i cn do then.
bad remarks then bad remarks.
but really im just trying to help.
and yes, my fren may be in ur class.
but it's not considered as a class prob.
frens do haf the rights to help rite.
one of the three asked me on thurs mon:
shld i tell 'u' wad happened to her(my fren)?
i nodded my head and said yes.
i din noe problems were so serious then.
i told her but i chnged the story round.
she's fine right now, when i saw her.
wad shld i do then? im no person to interfere her life.
but wad cn i do for her? to help?
i dunno.
i really dunno.
dun ask anything.

im confused.



9:45 PM; shattered dreams.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

yes. & im finally back updating.
i stopped for a long time, didnt i?
hahas. anw, there's a reason to my stop blogging.
LOL! i now sometimes return frm sch alr like 5+.
and then i jus bathe and slp and then wake up do homework.
there's no time for blogging anw.
yes. & im finally getting serious with work.
so a very sorry to all. for not updating.

hence, i removed the password.
since i rally update and no one tags me.
yups.
however, this is my bloggy, so if i write anything im upset with,
or anything that offence u, forgive me.
i find it no point of putting password.
but scammers pls get lost!

love the way i tok or not is not up to u to judge.
no one cn judge me.
u only judge ur own life.
if ur unhappy or wadsoever, let it be.
if u hate me, let it be.
if i flare at u, i've a reason for it.
if i tok to u nicely and u think im insulting u,forget it.
everyone is given a chance.
wether a hold it or not.



9:40 PM; shattered dreams.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

im blogging again.
todae maybe blog liao other dae cnt blog so much.
cos tml sch reopen liao..
yars. and i haf a timetable to follow.
sis did it.
hais.
i oso wanna score well for Os.
i tml wan chng place.
i wan sit with saliza.
but then i doubt if ppl allow me chng.
but i seriously dun wan sit back that place.
though jiayi there lars.
but sit there i cnt concentrate de lors.
HAIYO!
dun care so much lars. tml i jus sit there.
hais. i dun wan bother so much..


anw, how time flies. tml is sch reopen liao
new yr 2007.
get ready for Os liao lars.
all e best ppl!(=



10:49 PM; shattered dreams.

Monday, January 01, 2007

here to blog.
normal as usual for todae.
but somehow abit different.
went out shopping with sis and mum.
yuppies.
went novena for fish& co.
pathetic, food different frm other time i ate.
and yes. we had 7 serving of sauces.
all thx to mum.
hahas.
and 1 extra large serving of tartar sauce.
mum and sis finished that.
LOL!
v kong bu!
HAHAS!
then ltr on we go PS!
we go there shop shop lors.
thought daiso alot of things.
end up like hell little!?!?!
it's like wad the hell lars.
so ended up going carefour and then assino.
i wanted to buy those air con blanket.
end up v ex.
then mama wan me buy those cheap cheap de.
then i tell her i dun wan liao.
wan buy, buy the best.
if not dun buy.
that's me lars.
hahas.
anw, i gotta go soon.
sis rush me go do homework.
so fast sch reopening liao..
hahas!
bubyes!!!!
wishing all a new year start!!!



11:21 PM; shattered dreams.


hey yos.
im back blogging after 2 daes.
opps~ its not 2 daes.
is 3 daes. yuppies. so that means?!
it a new year ahead.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
everyone starting afresh.
but of course for me and frens.
start afresh doesnt mean to forget all that u've learn.
this year is a very important year for us.
everyone lets work hard.(:

i think im getting abit emo here though.
yupps, all abt frenship lars.
lotsa probs came up within the last few dae of 2006.
it's v unfortunate abt it.
she e-mailed me the other dae.
and i replied.
i told her i tried my best to save the frenship many times.
im tired of it le.
and she said since i said it that way,
she got nothing to say le.
fine lars.
it's abit saddenning to sort of let go this frenship.
afterall it's still a frenship last abt 2yrs?!
but seriously i had enough.
it may be me being sensitive.
but it's not possible that im sensitive for everytime rite?!
i may be. who noes.
but she nv tries finding out frm me.
im gonna let go no matter how.
i cn smile w/o her.
i dun nid a fren that hurt me w/o herself noeing.
it's being too unfair to me le.
i gotta learn to be strong w/o her.
i cn survive w/o frens.
i do haf faith in myself.
at least if im left all alone.
i still haf myself as a fren.
truthness is myself.
i wont be her, the way she treats; like sparetyre.
i wan myself to lead happy life.
i wan give myself happiness.
i wan to support myself.

YES!
and all this would be my NEW YEAR's resolutions.
here's my other new year's resolutions;
1. get my ear pieced.
2. get a laptop.
3. study hard.
4. get gd result to make my sis and myself proud.
5. concentrate on Os and not all those stupid matters of frenship.
6. dun dwell over minor matters.
7. be more cheerful and smile more.
YES! and that's it. i wan to achieve at least number:
3-7 done!

WELL DONE PAMELA!
that's the way to go.
new year ahead.
no more dwelling over small matters!!!



2:37 AM; shattered dreams.

PROFILE

PAMELA
You can name me XIIAOPAM;
b'dae on 29 NOV;
once studied in OLGC and now in PEICAI;
SHATEC will be my future.


LOVES
love my FAMILY; FRIENDS;
HANDPHONE; love MUSIC;
DRAMA SERIES and INTERACT CLUB


HATES
I HATESMOKERS; BACKSTABBERS;
PANGSEHS KIA; BAD MOUTHS

WISHES
I wish to GET MY EAR PIERCE;
get ACER LAPTOP ; HANA KIMI DVDs;
GUARDIAN ANGEL ;
INTERACT CLUB GOES GREATER HEIGHTS; and GET GOOD Os RESULTS!!!
voices



sayonara

>GEOK LENG
>JESLYN
>JIA XIN
>JIE YING
>JOEL
>JUNE
>LIJUN
>OLIVIA
>PEI LING
>REBECCA
>REIHANNA
>SALIZA
>SERENE
>SIEW YING
>WAN YING



past memories

>August 2006

>September 2006

>October 2006

>November 2006

>December 2006

>January 2007

>February 2007

>March 2007

>July 2007

>February 2008


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