Monday, February 26, 2007
TODAY & TOMORROW, NO SCH DAYS
yar lars. im not going school again.
but i have reason.
i've got a mc.
my head has been spinning.
my fever had been on and off as and when it likes.
have a sore throat that hurts me to hell.
and of cos with that stupid throat,
my ear gets block and hear muffledly,
or rather cnt really hear.
and that was rather bad.
i jus ask doc for today's mc.
but he insisted that i shld stay home to rest till tml.
then i return to sch on wed.
fri is common test 1.
and im still missing lessons.
yes, i noe i've been lessons.
it's not that i dun wan to go.
wad for make myself there and get myself so uncomfortable.
and spread germs to others..
probably i'll ask teacher to help me on wed or thurs.
hais.
i cnt control my immunity, cn i?
i hope i cn too.
then i wont be falling sick so easily.
OH HELL!
i cnt hear.
my ear is block!
hais...
went j8 to buy the animal crossing game.
wasting money again.
hahaas.
anw, it's fun.
yups. they sold it at $69
so ex.
i saw at cine the other time it was $65.90.
im not lying.
so i got the game at $65.
cos it's like, it wont be possible for things at orchard to be cheaper.
how could it be, i explained to the guy.
so, the guy very shuang kuai say ok,
$65.
so i deal!
hahas. i wasted my day at home slpin at the doc and getting somethings at j8.
i din do any homework.
probably i'll get them done tml.
is like i feel so tired that i like keep wanting to slp and rest.
yupss. that's for today.
=)
im gonna rest again.
=X
waiting for my dinner luhs.
sis said initially was 8pm.
then 8.30.
then 8.45.
then before 9.
hais..
wad the...
8:13 PM; shattered
dreams.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
i've long to be blogging.
hahas. anw, ya i shld be resting now.
but i jus cnt slp.
dunno y..dun ask me.
had been having fever.
ytrday nite till now.
ytrday nite temp was 38.4.
this morning 37.
and jus 37.9.
hais.. my head's spinning too.
dun even noe if i cn make it to sch tml.
ppl get it rite.
not purposely dun wan go.
but is like having on-off fever for 2 days?
and head spinning for 48hrs?
how to go?
i dunno.
but will c how.
would try to pull myself there..
that's all bahs.
peeps.
ytr we take those photos, i'll send u guys other days.
=)
7:23 PM; shattered
dreams.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
many many days never blog lerhs.
so back here blogging.
as a relief of studying for bio test tml..
hahas.
hack lars. got study ok liaos.
and today was a no sch day for me.
i self studied together with jiayi.
and through this exercise i realised something about myself.
it's not that i dun understand those lessons.
is wether or not i wan to..
and that jus now chem self revision, i actually understand the book.
WOOS~
so now i noe.
actually i haf a gd sponge up there.
is wether or not i hold on the sponge in my hand or let go into the water.
it feels so gd to learn somethings and understand somethings.
HAHAAS~
sorry, im crazy if u dun noe..=)
jus like ytrday poa tuition.
it has been long since i've gotten the question right,
and both sides gets equal.
LALALALAS~ IM SO HAPPY~
11:31 PM; shattered
dreams.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
ytrday broke down.
my string snapped.
i really dunno what to do.
i alr said that i would wash the basin ltr on,
cos i was having a very bad headache.
then she yell at me.
i eat choco she also yell.
cos im having a tongue ulcer.
i just ate a little.
she made me eat panandol.
fine, i took it and when bad into the rm.
im lost.
i dunno what to do.
i want to study, but after all scolding, no more mood.
tears rolled down non-stop.
at that time, i wish that i cn stop study and everything.
i would really want to give up everything.
this morning keep dirrhoea.
then din go sch in the morning.
abt 9.30am wake up le then i went to sch.
brought those things to sch.
abit sian sian like that though.
cos like eat le jiu stomach ache.
wtf.
yar then after sch the prog, made me pissed.
they dun wan this dun wan that.
made me pissed.
hmm..after today, i dun think i shld give up on myself.
i recieve a few things today.
thanks guys.
recieve sweets frm shir and bao.
mentos frm saliza.
and jocelyn m&m cookie.
and the so called 'private date' with jiayi.
=)
you guys let me realise that i haf frens arnd me that care.
HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL!!
=X
6:41 PM; shattered
dreams.
Monday, February 12, 2007
im dead beat.
damn tired luhs.
finish sch stuff le, then for interact.
chiong like siao.
and tml, have loci test, i've yet to prepare a single thing.
hais.
hmm..i won't be able to go to shatec luhs.
my sis quiting work soon.
then there won't be enough financial support.
hence, she wans me to go for poly.
and guess what, poly courses i'm more interested in ones,
cutt off point is 15.
tell me, how to get 15 without studing for even simple chapter loci?
and how to get 15 without working hard in acdemic?
how to?
omg. i nid to find a way to help myself.
hm..this afternoon at the home econ rm, terrifing things happen.
there's this damn feirce man.
i see his face oso scared, then he threatens.
wad else, the ppl lock themselves in the rm.
we scared then we left to look for teacher.
cnt find the teach ic then we asked ms kang for help.
then reported to general office.
ms kang v funny lars.
she say she also scared. LOLS!
then after finish all these, went back to class help pei, bao, kel paint the board.
abit abit only.
yups. CNY cuming ler wors.
will keep my blog updated derhs...
9:04 PM; shattered
dreams.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
back to blog.
hahas. ok today went back sch to do the frenship day carnival stuff.
my group wasted 1 pack of the jelly powder.
it wasnt a success.
but the other 2 packs i made them, it's nice.
hahas. then made 22 cups.
jiayi group made the marie lollipop.
some are nice looking some are humph..
yuppies.
then left over things we eat then cos there's left over egg,
zaniel fried egg to share. hahas.
not bad ar, cn fry egg without oil.
then jiayi bought chocolate to share too.
blackforest derhs.
then next wk going to do somemore.
hopefully the sales will be gd..
hahahas.
that's all.
ltr i still got tuition.
sian lars. 2.5hrs of poa.
>.<'''
2:42 PM; shattered
dreams.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
erm...2d gathering date more or less settled.
hais. im like the filling of a sandwich in the organising team.
some wans it before new year, some wans it after.
forget it lars. there will sure be ppl not turning up on either a date.
jus settle on 23rd luhs. i'll let ms sae noe.
my pieces in my brain of my head is now spinning like crazy.
the more i use the comp, e more spins i get.
i dunno y either.
still the same. i lost interest in everything.
and that makes me dun wanna do homework nor study.
n tml i will be witnessing the taking of Os results.
there's a fear in me.
i dunno how to express it.
it jus seems like i wan to be like some of them who will cry of happiness and proudness.
but im not doing my work.
im not playing a part in my studies.
yes i noe all this.
i always wanted to try doing work.
but everytime, work out, pen infront.
my hands refuse to take the pen to do it.
and my brain refuse to think.
how the hell am i going to get good grades?
oh man. and furthermore, today interact kanna some prob.
hais. fcuk lors.
is like wad the hell? same dates, same type of event, same kind of products.
goodness. i dunno wad to do.
seriously lost.
is there something i cn do with my studies, interact and even for my frens.
i really find myself making a din out of something minor.
also, yes i wanna loss weight.
im not trying at taf, cos i find that even the teachers aint helping, but they do for the sake of doing.
but when all this prob comes.
all the eating will come together.
it all come naturally.
wad am i really to do about my sucky life?
i wanna create a colourful life for myself.
but my colour pencils and paint aint working.
how cn i get these colours working.
cn someone out there help me?
guardian angel aint here yet.
i want someone there to help me.
i wan to try helping myself.
but i nid a person there to pressurise me, force me, acc me do work.
this mystery angel, pls, i beg u.
help me. i dun wanna noe who u r now.
if no longer matters.
as long as u cn help me.
i dun mind if u scold me to help me.
u scold, u beat, u slap, i dun mind.
get me awake pls.
guardian angel, guide my way, brighten my life.
8:23 PM; shattered
dreams.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
what's happening to me these days?
y am i getting angry over minor matters easily?
y is this so?
side-effect or wad?
oh god. pls help. i dun wan carry on with such life.
everyday same lifestyle. do the same thing.
im tired of life. im sick and tired. very very tired.
can i choose not to have such boring lifestyle?
i dun wan to haf it. it is damn it boring luhs.
and the stress running towards me is like bees.
rushing forward for honey.
i feel like giving up yet i cnt.
god, where is the guardian angel i asked for?
send one to me.
or have u sent yet i do not noe yet.
i really felt like the string of perserverance i have,
is snapping soon enough.
would this weak string last me for long?
i doubt so. really.
god, u took away so many things in my life since young.
u took my dad away from me. i end up fatherless.
i dun care abt that.
but now, y are u taking away my interest of studies.
and my faith in myself.
im starting to loss all these.
can u return all these back to me?
i nid them.
how long more is all this going to last?
it's painful.
hopefully it doesnt't get on further for too long.
my string would snap.
mark my words.
is there someone out there to help me mend this breaking string?
i always mend these strings for others.
yet i have no skill for my own's.
i'll just be afraid of snapping my own string.
y is this so?
HELP!!
it's getting me crazy.
where's my guardian angel??
pls come out. i nid u..
come out pls. i beg you.
guardian angel, where are you?
9:06 PM; shattered
dreams.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i came online again.
i told myself i shall start afresh and concentrate on studies this year.
it seems to me that i've failed to, but im still perservering.
i nid keep myself strong.
i have had the thinking of giving up everything; studies and really everything.
like wad i told geok leng just now.
no point of giving up our studies now.
cos we are 9/10 of our studies journey.
y not jus carry on for 9months?
since we gotten 9 years off already.
no point giving up now.
however, i really feel like giving up.
life is so tiring.
everyday sch, homework, meetings.
wad's more?
really, im v tired.
getting depressed over studies.
although im so busy with studies, but i still cnt quiet down in interact.
i wan to bring it to greater heights.
did i bring all this upon myself?
y is this so?
i cnt let go of studies, nor interact.
oh god. plss~ tell me wad to do..
im at lost now. is there a guardian angel that cn guide me along this way?
pls give me one. i nid this guardian angel.
im struggling my way through.
hopefully i wont give up. or probably even this string of struggle would snap sometime sooner.
i never noes.
im getting more and more white hair.
more and more as every chinese new year goes by.
*p.s. i nid a guardian angel. send me one.
9:35 PM; shattered
dreams.
Monday, February 05, 2007
humph. quite stress these few days though.
yups. i had my investiture today.
still ok lars. heard some quite bad comments.
but dun care!
anw, yar, pissed again.
same reason as for sat.
but she apologised. so let it be.
sure there'll be a second time.
yes, and get it right.
dun compare me or my board with others.
i hate it.
we r we, others r others.
dun compare us and make us into 1.
that's all for today.
=)
i miss xiao zhu=X
serene not going school tml=(
8:08 PM; shattered
dreams.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
blog blog again.
hahas.
wake up damn late this morning.
then afternoon go ang mo kio c xiao zhu.
xiao zhu= baby cousin
hahas. new nick for him.
he's damn small=X
and also damn cute.
hahas.
mum was there shaking him.
it's like earthquake to him. hahahas.
cute cute de xiao zhu.
yups, then after that went to amkhub.
i bought a dress for new year, then mum bought a jeans.
sis bought a dress and a blouse.
hehes. next wk go out find accessories lors.
i love my dress.
i wait go take a pic of it, then i'll post it here.
:DD
i love my dress.
and yuppies, i have xiaozhu cousin.
hahas.
im going off to do homework lerhs.
till now haven touch any homework yet luhs=X
9:12 PM; shattered
dreams.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
i chng a new skin ytrdae nite. since im free anyway.
and guess wad, this few days too relax, till i forgot about my work.
it's like, what the..
i find this skin pretty not bad. so yupps.
cos i find many many, then i like dun like lehs.
so i jus settle on one.
we r like damn pissed today.
especially me and jiayi lars.
it's like, we had been rushed to give out proposal ytrday.
yes, and we rushed it out.
then we give. wad happen next?!
she din read. and she said that she doesn't have the time.
if she no time i cn understand.
but then..!! guess wad. she said,
psl investiture on mon, is more impt.
it's like.. HELLO??!! monday is just infront of sch, 2 sessions.
ours is two events in a week.
furthermore, ours is like so many other days and sessions.
what the hell luhs.
i hate it.
probably that's the reasons y juniors also say we useless.
mind you! we're not useless.
when i events not smooth, it's bcos alot of last min work.
yes, and for every event such things happen.
our proposal had been drag.
again and again.
damn hell luhs. i dun like.
look who's useless man.
not bcos u close to who ever then say whoever is more capable.
open ur eyes luhs.
alwas try to act capable.
get the right things up ur mind luhs.
anw, dun talk about it le luhs.
it just make me feel more pissed.
just now went to All Saints Home.
on our own accord.
then went check out price for the oranges.
look people! we're not useless.
we're doing a gd job.
we're not people who gets other worry.
get this in mind.
whoever spread this further, gets no where better.
jus now came home, slp then go tuition.
then go ti amo makan again.
stupid luhs.
i bought 6 pieces of salmon grilled fish, some bell pepper that i dun eat.
with fries and salad.
waste of my money.
so ex luhs. $12.90 lehs.
yes, and just now my mama says that she wanna buy laptop for me.
boss help her pay 1st.
buying not a prob. is the internet part.
anw, home this comp also anytime gonna die.
no one noes when it'll go.
yupps. that's all for today.
long post huhs...
yes it is.
anyway, ppl pass by.
tagg me. dun let my tagg rot...
9:30 PM; shattered
dreams.
Friday, February 02, 2007
back in the second day of a new month.
i must fast fast blog. cos comp siao siao.
anytime will go off.
yupps.
hahahas, just now go eat steam boat with geok leng.
i din really eat much todae, more of the soup.
yes, and after eating, i run toilet.
how nice of it hor..
hahas.
me and gl was there talking about bai ma wang zi.
she's desperate for a guy.
hahas.
actually me sort of so too.
hahas.. i like the ying huo chong de meng that zhiji.
omg. his character is damn gd, he's a gdgd guy.
humph. too bad.
he doesnt belongs to me.
i believe he got stead liao lors.
gl oso wan find such guy..
but we believe in 1000 guys, there will only be one.
aawww...
i wish i get one of them in the singapore 3 million guys..
hahas...
pamela, dream on man.
hahas.
yes, that's all for todae. i try blog tml again.
btw, im gonna chng my link soon. if wan ask me for it.
10:00 PM; shattered
dreams.