Thursday, February 08, 2007
erm...2d gathering date more or less settled.
hais. im like the filling of a sandwich in the organising team.
some wans it before new year, some wans it after.
forget it lars. there will sure be ppl not turning up on either a date.
jus settle on 23rd luhs. i'll let ms sae noe.
my pieces in my brain of my head is now spinning like crazy.
the more i use the comp, e more spins i get.
i dunno y either.
still the same. i lost interest in everything.
and that makes me dun wanna do homework nor study.
n tml i will be witnessing the taking of Os results.
there's a fear in me.
i dunno how to express it.
it jus seems like i wan to be like some of them who will cry of happiness and proudness.
but im not doing my work.
im not playing a part in my studies.
yes i noe all this.
i always wanted to try doing work.
but everytime, work out, pen infront.
my hands refuse to take the pen to do it.
and my brain refuse to think.
how the hell am i going to get good grades?
oh man. and furthermore, today interact kanna some prob.
hais. fcuk lors.
is like wad the hell? same dates, same type of event, same kind of products.
goodness. i dunno wad to do.
seriously lost.
is there something i cn do with my studies, interact and even for my frens.
i really find myself making a din out of something minor.
also, yes i wanna loss weight.
im not trying at taf, cos i find that even the teachers aint helping, but they do for the sake of doing.
but when all this prob comes.
all the eating will come together.
it all come naturally.
wad am i really to do about my sucky life?
i wanna create a colourful life for myself.
but my colour pencils and paint aint working.
how cn i get these colours working.
cn someone out there help me?
guardian angel aint here yet.
i want someone there to help me.
i wan to try helping myself.
but i nid a person there to pressurise me, force me, acc me do work.
this mystery angel, pls, i beg u.
help me. i dun wanna noe who u r now.
if no longer matters.
as long as u cn help me.
i dun mind if u scold me to help me.
u scold, u beat, u slap, i dun mind.
get me awake pls.
guardian angel, guide my way, brighten my life.
8:23 PM; shattered
dreams.